As I turn to a new chapter in my life and enter into my 30s...here is what I have to say about my 20s:
So as I sit back and look at who I was when I turned 20 to who I am now - I am 60% a different person.
I say 60% because I think I have always been a kind, compassionate person.
I don't think I always stood up for myself - I learned my self worth and value in my 20s. I learned it is ok to not smile through everything, and I learned not to always have a wall up.
When I was 20 years old- the same women that are in my bridal party were in my life. I was blessed.
When I was 20 - I backpacked through Europe ALONE.
I've moved, made new friends, lost some friends, watched friends get married, watched friends have babies.
I've traveled, seen more of the world, met all kinds of people.
I've become me.
As I enter into my 30s - I will become a wife (May of 2013!) and hopefully, god willing, in my 30s, I will become a mother as well.
My brother lives in the same city as B's family. So this year for Thanksgiving, my family went to that city and we did Thanksgiving 3 times!
Thursday we went to a Latin Fusion restaurant with my parents, my grandfather, my brother and B's parents. After eating we went to B's parents house and watched more football than ever before. Fun was had by everyone.
Friday, we went to a Pizza place with the same people as above but also including B's Dad's parents and B's dad's uncle. (B and B's dad are both only children.) Unfortunately, you can't see B's grandmother's face in the picture - but she is so lovely!
(Left side of the table front to back - my brother, B's grandfather, B's mom, B, my dad.
Right side of the table front to back- my grandfather, B's great uncle, B's dad, me, B's grandmother, my mom.)
Lastly - on Saturday we went to a Mexican restaurant with my family, B's parents and B's mom's side of the family. Everyone drank and ate way too much - but it was wonderful.
I feel truly blessed that the blending of our family has happened so easily. With B being an only child, my brother is our only sibling and I couldn't be more blessed to have him and B get along so well. We are so blessed to have our amazing family!
Like I said - I have so many things to be thankful for and I am a truly optimistic person - but I think I had too much time on my hands this past weekend - and I lost it.
I am just sad that hasn't gone away - and sad really isn't the correct emotion. I am upset, angry, sad and scared. I love my life right now - I ABSOLUTELY LOVE planning my wedding - to my dream guy. I never in a million years could have dreamed the love we have. I never in a million years thought my life could be what it is.
This is the most joyous time in my life - and yet I am fearful. I shouldn't be - but I am.
I go back in January for the next appointment to see if it has progressed or retreated.
So, while most days are about flowers and cakes and pretty dresses - SOME days - I am anxious and scared.
All of this is part of life - and through all of this - a different kind of love has been shown to me. How B cares and loves for me through my ups and downs - through the great news and the devastating news - the way he loves - it is the way I need to be loved. For this I am the most thankful for during this Thanksgiving.
I'd rather be READING. Something I have been challenged with lately is losing weight. BUT I WILL GET THERE. I am looking forward to Thanksgiving with my entire family - old and new! A super random factoid about me isI love to travel!
1. Something I swore I'd never do, but ended up doing anyways is I have no idea - but I have a feeling whenever i become a mom I will do all of those things!
2. Something I have always wanted to do is go to Thailand!!!
3. Something I have no desire to ever do is I am copying Lauren, but skydive - seriously jumping out of a perfectly normal plane? I will pass.
4. The best thing I ever did was meet up with B. Seriously, hands down the best thing I ever did was say "yes" when he asked if I wanted to get together for drinks and catch up. We caught up, and pretty much saw each other every single day afterwards.
5. When it comes to trying new things I am ALL FOR IT. I love to try new things.
6. One thing I have never done is hmm, I've never eaten a full tomato. I HATE THEM.
7. My favorite thing to do is READ.
As this week we celebrated 3 years of dating (and in May when we get married we will be celebrating 10 years of friendship!) I wanted to go with Marriage advice -
So give me your best marriage advice (or if you are not married - advice you have heard through your friends etc.)
From my parents - "Love deeply and say I'm sorry." "Laugh every single day."
From my best friend "When fighting, be careful what your words are as what you feel about him and say about him are the most important words to him - make sure you are aware of this, even if it is the 500th time he forgot to take out the trash."
From my grandfather "Mama Connie (my grandmother) was always right. Even when I didn't want her to be."
Tpyically I post a pinterest post on Monday...but not this Monday.
This Monday is different. 3 years ago today, B and I started dating..for real this time. In the past we had gone on a few dates here and there, but we never actually had a relationship. We were friends.
Everything changed on October 29, 2009. We had been hanging out, going on a few dates and just genuinely enjoying each others company - little did we know we were starting a relationship.
We traveled, went to weddings, hung out with friends, partied, got to know each of other's families:
This time we were both in it, for real. 2 and half years later, on April 5, 2012 this happened:
And now, on October 29, 2012 - 3 years from the date we started dating - I cannot believe we are getting married in a few months.
I don't normally do this, but here goes:
From the moment we became friends in college, I knew you were different. I did NOT know you would one day become my fiance and my soon to be husband. I knew you were kind, generous, always down for some fun, and that you smiled constantly. I knew you were passionate about life, cars and having a cold beer. I did not know you were also passionate about me. I knew you were a wonderful friend and I knew we could talk for hours - our bank statements probably agree since we drank so much starbucks in college together. I did not know we would be sharing those long talks and endless starbucks together years later. I knew we were friends, I never thought we would one day be husband and wife.
I cannot tell you how amazing it is to see us grow - grow up, become adults, see each other through rough times and great times - but mostly to have you by my side. I am lucky, I am blessed.
Thank you for the countless times we met at the starbucks on Far West, the many rides home in college after a great night at Cain and Abels, fun poker nights, going to the shooting range, long talks about love and life, telling me I shouldn't do something (only to still do it and you be right!), all of the adventure, the camping, the trips, making me try things out of my comfort zone but mostly...
thank you for taking the bold move of getting in contact with me after a few years had gone by with no communication between us. Without that - we wouldn't have built this amazing life together.
I never thought in a million years that long ago from our very first date back in 2003, to becoming friends for years, to losing touch and meeting up again in 2009 that we would be here in our life together. I cannot wait for us to be married.
So B bought 2 jet skis this summer. 1 from his cousin and the other needed some work.
I confess that I wasn't exactly thrilled about these jet skis. I hated the first one he bought - It wasn't stable and it is more of a "racing" type - perfect for him...not for me. Which then got him thinking about buying another one for me - "so we can jet ski together"
This past weekend we went jet skiing - IN OCTOBER - because it is still in the 80s here.
I confess that I had a lot of fun. I love "my" jet ski.
So now they are winterized and after we are married we will take them out on the lake - because after our honeymoon that is pretty much the only thing we will be able to afford to do - and I cannot wait!
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1. One thing I plan on doing to relax this weekend is watch the UT Football game - although if it is anything like the last TWO games...it isn't really relaxing... 2. A big pet peeve of mine is people who talk to hear themselves talk AND people who are CONSTANTLY negative. I GET SO ANNOYED AT NEGATIVE PEOPLE! 3. I am really loving that when I woke up this morning the air was crisp - I know it will be 80 degrees by noon - but it is SLOWLY feeling like Fall! 4. The rain is very soothing for me. I love to curl up and read a book when it rains. 5. My favorite girly indulgence is any kid of makeup product or skin care. My Vanity is overflowing - hence my spend freeze until at least the wedding on makeup and skin care products (unless I need it FOR the wedding!) 6. A song I always get stuck in my head is "Call Me Maybe" whenever it is on the radio and ANY Adele song.
I am married to the most amazing man in the world - B! I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful family and the most amazing friends a girl could ever have. One day I made the decision that I have one life so I might as well love it and be happy every single day - so I am. Try it. I couldn't ask for a better or more charmed life than the one I have been given.