Tuesday, August 30, 2011


2011 has been a tough and challenging year for me.

In February I lost my uncle. My mother's brother.

In June I lost my great uncle - who was a father figure for my father as my grandfather passed away when my dad was only 5.

This August I lost my grandfather's wife. My grandfather married approximately 10 years ago as my grandmother passed away when I was 14.

Everyone said "bad things happen in threes" or things of the like to show that I have done enough greieving for a year. Except I don't believe Death is "bad". It is part of life - the good, the ups and the downs. Right now I feel a bit "down".

My uncle was pretty young to pass away, but he had a terribly hard life. Mostly his own fault with his own decisions, but sometimes the "cards didn't fall the right way" for him. He taught me my love of music, how to "handle" my mom, and truly the value of an education. He told me, when I was about 16 that the difference between his life and my parents lives was purely education. They had the same upbringing and same opportunities, but my mother had the perservence to stick with education. He told me to never take the easy road as he always tried to and it always set him farther back than where he first started. I suppose, looking back, he knew his mistakes and he wanted nothing more than for myself to never make those. He told me those things when I was 16 and his youngest child turns 16 this year. I only hope that I can help him understand what his father once told me. 

My great uncle showed me what family was all about. He and his wife had 4 children - 3 boys and a 1 girl. One of the men is in seminary on his way to being a priest. I've always thought he was going to be a priest, but his discerment took about 10 years to truly know his calling. The other three are married to the most amazing partners. While my "Uncle Johnny" was Baptist, his wife and 4 children are all Catholic. They grew up in both churches and did community service projects for both churches. When you asked him what helped to make his 60+ years as a married man so wonderful he always said "it didn't hurt to have 2 congregations praying for you and your family and your marriage". 

My grandfather's wife, Marinela passed away just recently. She truly was wonderful, made Abuelo laugh and truly made him perk up in life again. She was there when he battled cancer and when he went in remission. She was there to celebrate love and life with him. While I was uncertain about his idea to marry 10 years ago, she truly made my grandfather's life so much more fun.

I wanted to write down a few things about them as I know I am still in the grieving process. They existed. They mattered to me. They taught me love, life and so much more. I just hope to get back to the "real" me again. I go back and forth and up and down as they meant a lot to me.

It is in the everyday moments when I miss them the most. When something breaks and I think "my uncle could would know what to do, let me call him." Or when I drive by my great uncle's exit and think "I should pop on over and say hello to Uncle Johnny" or when I talk to my grandfather and I can hear the little bit of sadness in his voice.

It isn't easy. It isn't hard. It is part of life. It is part of knowing and loving people. It is part of family.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Amazing Girlfriends

I have amazing girlfriends. Most are in separate groups and don't really know each other. I've collected them throughout my life from different stages and different places. I do have a group here in Htown - there are 4 of us who try to get together at least once a month for dinner - it's our "Girls Sushi Night" although sometimes it isn't for sushi. Well, V has a cabin in the hill country and the 4 of us, but 3 more went to the hill country and to the wineries last weekend. IT WAS WONDERFUL. We hired a limo and truly had a blast.

I wish I had pictures to add...waiting on them as I didn't bring my camera.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

10 DAY CHALLENGE - ONE picture of myself

ONE picture of myself- this was taken on our trip through Colorado last year. I was so incredibly happy. It was a wonderful trip.

Friday, August 12, 2011


Top 2 Favorite SONGS:

1.  Carole King's "Beautiful"

You've got to get up every morning with a smile on your face

And show the world all the love in your heart
Then people gonna treat you better
You're gonna find, yes, you will
That you're beautiful as you feel

Waiting at the station with a workday wind a-blowing
I've got nothing to do but watch the passers-by
Mirrored in their faces I see frustration growing
And they don't see it showing, why do I?

You've got to get up every morning with a smile on your face
And show the world all the love in your heart
Then people gonna treat you better
You're gonna find, yes, you will
That you're beautiful as you feel

I have often asked myself the reason for THE sadness
In a world where tears are just a lullaby
If there's any answer, maybe love can end the madness
Maybe not, oh, but we can only try

You've got to get up every morning with a smile on your face
And show the world all the love in your heart
Then people gonna treat you better
You're gonna find, yes, you will
That you're beautiful as you feel

2. Chicago - "You're the Inspiration"...ok most things by Chicago I like.

Thursday, August 11, 2011


3 Favorite Films:


2. Groundhog Day

3. SATC- the movies, the show.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011


FOUR Books:
I don't every really have favorites when it comes to books - I read A LOT. I love a lot of my books!

1. For Cookbooks - I love all of my Cooking Light books. AMAZINGLY wonderful recipes.

2. The True Memoirs of Little K - good historical fiction

3. For a good read - I really recently enjoyed Little Bee, slow at first and just gets better and better

4. As for Chick Lit books - I loved the Confessions of a Shopaholic series - so funny. Truly.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011


For the 5 foods...this is easy...these are  some of the ridiculous foods that I like...

1.  Escargot. It is one of my very favorite foods. I don't get it often but MMMMM

2. Lobster bisque - so amazing

3. foie gras - another thing I RARELY ever get, but I love it. Got it last night when B and I went to Marks as part of Restaurant Month here in Houston.

4. Blue bell home made vanilla ice cream.

5. french bread with really good quality butter. (preferably in France, but I will get what I can!)

Monday, August 8, 2011


SIX Places:

I don't know if this is supposed to be 6 places I love, places I want to go etc...so...I decided it should be 6 places I would love for B and I to go visit!

1. Santorini - I loved it there. It is beautiful...I want us to go there!

2. Paris, France - um need I say more?

3. Australia - never been...want to go...want to see Ayers rock!

4. Italy - specifically the coast and Tuscany...

5. Fiji

6. And for the less far away - Nantucket

Sunday, August 7, 2011



This is totally an outrageous list...just FYI

1.  An ORANGE Birkin bag

2.  A pair of these Louboutins:

3. This nail polish (This is actually a do-able thing, it just is more expensive than most of the colors I buy!)

4. This perfume...it is on my list once I finish the Kate Spade one I currently have. (I'm a one at a time girl when it comes to perfume.)

5. I also want a really well made dress - like one that just looks like it was made for me. Any ideas?

6. These earrings:

7. And lastly...of this extragavent shopping excursion... these

Saturday, August 6, 2011


Eight FEARS:

1. That I won't truly leave this world better than it was when I came into it.

2.  That something will happen to my loved ones. I know people pass away, but I just hope everyone I love (and everyone in general) doesn't suffer. I read the news, I see the stories and they just make me so sad.

3. That I won't grow old and enjoy every moment.

4. Roaches

5. Spiders

6.  That I will not be able to have children. This unfortunately is a very legitimate fear and not one I take lightly.

7. Something happens to Roxy. Life with her and B, we are our own little family. I just cannot imagine life without her. Yes, I know she is a dog, but - she is my dog, she is his dog, she is our dog and a huge part of our life.

8. That somehow I will get it all wrong. I see people get married, have children, look happy and then boom - it all crashes down he (or she) cheats and the whole world they knew implodes. I think people say "oh I love him oh he loves me, that won't happen to us" except I think everyone says that and yet it happens more and more and I wonder - where did they get it all wrong. How did they get there...mostly because I never want to be there in that place with my world imploding.

Friday, August 5, 2011




1. My family.

2. My friends

3. B!

4. Roxy

5. Movie nights at home


7. the way my car smells and looks after it has been really cleaned

8. the feeling I get when I finish a new book

9. sushi!

Thursday, August 4, 2011


I decided to do the 10 days of YOU Challenge. I feel that it will help me get back into the blogging groove.


1. I bite my nails. I am trying to stop...I think I've been trying to stop since I was little! I go through phases. Sometimes they are rather long, sometimes they are so short that they bleed. I know it is gross and I would LOVE to stop it.

2. I want to be a writer some day. I don't really "write" on my blog - this is more of a journal/diary of my life. I loved writing in college, I still love writing today. I'd love to get paid to write.

3. I miss my brother every single day he isn't home. We haven't lived under the same roof in 10 years, and I still miss him. We talk almost daily- and I hate that he is so far away.

4. I feel so lucky to have the family I have. Truly lucky.

5. I'm a neat freak. B is making me less of one. I don't know if I like that.

6. There was a time in my life that I wondered if I would ever fall in love. True love. Love like my parents have. I really thought it didn't exist anymore. Now...I know better.

7. I hate working out. HATE IT. I need to find something I love. I love Bikram Yoga...but it is SO Expensive here.

8.  I'm only 5'2 and I LOVE the way heels look- but after like an hour, I want to be back in my flip flops.

9. I love reality TV. I know I shouldn't, I know it is trash...but it SUCKS ME IN!

10.  I have too many clothes. I need to clean out my closet!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Time has flown by!

August is here, therefore summer is slowly coming to an end...and what a summer it has been! I hope to truly update more often, but life has been busy busy busy!

B and I went with his parents and uncle to the Bahamas - 10 days of pure bliss. I loved it. I was relaxed, enjoyed my time with them and truly feel lucky that not only is B so wonderful, but his family is as well.

I'll update with pictures soon!