Monday, June 7, 2010
Beach camping
Friday, June 4, 2010
Fill in the blank FRIDAY!

1. My dream vacation would be a trip that is in Greece. I loved Greece when I backpacked through Europe- but I even wrote in my journal that it is a place to bring someone you love to. So I would go again once I'm married. It is beautiful.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
One year
I went to dinner with the girls, Indian this time. DELISH. While we were out- I realized how different all of our lives are now. In less than a year all of us are different. L is pregnant with a baby girl, V is single...VERY single and very happy single, R is finishing up school and starting to let go of the bs she has held onto and me...I am 180 degrees from where I was a year ago.
Yesterday marked a year since my ex and I split. Like I said - I remember certain dates and the break up, I remember. I remember because that was the day I started to become myself again. It took less than one year to be me.
My fb profile says "One day I made the decision that I have one life so I might as well love it and be happy every single day - so I am. Try it. " and the truth is...I did that. I literally sat down with myself and said - You have one life. You can be sad and hate it or you can be happy and love it. So I am happy every single day of my life. Sure I have my moments- but that is what they are - moments. There is no need to not smile - I have a wonderful life.
And once I was truly happy with my life - everything fell into place. I was working out more (gotta get back on the wagon!), making new friends, reconnecting with old friends and finding out things that I love to do! I traveled, partied, road tripped, danced and sang along the way.
It sounds crazy to say but I've never been more "alive" in my life. I think every other relationship I have been in somewhat made me feel trapped. Whether it was on the phone due to long distance, being with someone who couldn't do all of the things I wanted to do, or someone who never wanted to do things with me, or someone who somewhat thought of me as a person to clean up after them - I never felt that I could be 100% me.
I wish I could go tell every person that is starting to truly date to always be truthful to who you are, find someone who treats you wonderfully and love yourself more than you thought possible. I learned a lot of lessons over the past years - I somewhat joke that should I had just dated B from the beginning when we first went out on our first date I would have saved myself a lot of pain - but even then I know that we probably wouldn't be as great together had it not have been all of the learning experiences we have had. I wouldn't be nearly as much appreciative of all that he does (and he goes beyond anything I could ever imagine).
Everything falls into place. It all starts with being comfortable with who you are...then you are comfortable demanding what you want in life.
I demanded happiness from myself...and I got it - in every aspect of my life. It truly amazes me how one year can change everything.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
#5
I made and sent a postcard to postsecret.
I love this blog and I have always wanted to send one...whenever it comes I MAY attach a link.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
M and H's wedding weekend
Dinner time- he sat between us. I mean we sat down and she sat next to him. Seriously!
It is what it is but I'm just glad our normal life can resume and we can love each other and hold on tight to one another- but I didn't play it cool- I was not the nicest person to him- I drank too much and I'm sure I said a few things I wish I could take back- I was upset and yet I was not going to play the "he's my boyfriend" game. They talked- I was awkward and not included- it happens. Not often but it happens.
but in the end- this is what matters- the reception was wonderful, the bride and groom were lovely and B and I - we are fine. In fact more than fine- he makes everyday a better day by being in it- I'm just glad we don't have to run into her that often!
And we spent Monday hanging out the beach. I had a wonderful time with B. We spent Saturday going to a farmers market, a winery and seeing the small town the Bride was from. It was fun. Actually the whole weekend was a blast - just a few little crap moments here and there - and I won't let her ruin a weekend.
Plus...seeing him and how he handles things - I just always feel so lucky. I have no idea what I did to deserve such a wonderful person, but I can say that I am with someone that is as nice to me as I am to him and it is just lovely. 100% lovely.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Random I know...
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Top 2 Tuesday....dates
It is Top 2 Tuesday again....this week it is...
Friday, May 21, 2010
Fill in the blank...

2. The one thing that always completes any outfit is earrings and lipstick/gloss. My grandmother always told me- a lady with holes in her ears and no earrings and a lady without lipstick is a lady that doesn't want to be noticed. While I don't always agree, I see her point :)
5. If I could own one designer piece of clothing it would be classic Manolo pumps and the mary janes.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Pep talk
One of my friends is going through a horrible break up- actually you could say that she was the "other woman" but she never knew she was. She sent her boyfriend of 6 months a text message one evening and his girlfriend responded. She thought they were exclusive- they had that conversation. He told my friend that he didn't know who to choose...what a jerk.
So I formulated a pep talk for her - It is strange how a year can change everything. My life is nothing like it was last year. I am in such a different place- I am in an incredibly loving relationship that I wouldn't trade for anything.
Here is what I said to her:
Do not talk to him. Whenever I wanted to talk to the ex and did it was worse - when I finally said no. I got better - not right away- but better and I rose above all the drama and everything else.
In the end - it didn't matter why he did what he did. I always wanted answers and the thing is the answers would not have made everything else ok. It wouldn't have helped.
It mattered that I was hurt and I needed to feel better.
Here is the thing - you gotta go cold turkey- no weaning. Just say f off, goodbye, good riddance. And it is not easy – you of all people know that last year it was not easy for me.
The day my ex and I broke up last year was one of the best days of my life. I didn't know it then, but I know it now. I know how miserable I was and how much more I deserved.
1 year without him. 1 year and look how much better it is.
The feeling that I got when it was all over was I am better than that. It is very rare that I will say that I am a better person than someone else, but I am better than him. I am a better, nicer, smarter and overall a better human being than him. And to be honest...you are better than your ex.
Here is why - There is only one reason that I will say I am better than the ex and you are better than your ex. Because neither you nor I would ever do that to someone. Ever.
It has been an incredible journey. I learned so much about myself. Mostly though- I know I lost me. I love myself. I love that I laugh all the time, I love that I am honest with myself about everything. I love that even though I can whine, complain and be kinda cranky at times, that I am true to me. I don't worry about how I affect others because I know that I bring a good person to the table- so I cannot affect them negatively.
THAT is what I want for you. Of course I want you to fall in love (and you will). I want you to at some point be in a wonderful caring relationship like I am, but truly what I want for you is the power to be yourself again. To stand up for yourself and demand someone to be just as great as you are to them to you. Because honestly- I didn't know that I could demand that- I didn't know it existed.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Top 2 Tuesday



Monday, May 17, 2010
48, 63 and 69
B and I had a wonderful time. I truly have such an incredibly amazing boyfriend. I hope everyone is as lucky as I am.
We had a wonderful and romantic weekend. We saw a lighthouse, went hiking, had great wine, great food and truly I love every second I am with him. From laughing about our BRIGHT RED convertible, to watching the waves crash, to watching the sunset, sleeping in, walking around town- I am so lucky.
It was a wonderful romantic getaway.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
RL friends
I've been busy...


Now it needs a Longhorn emblem and I'm good to go! ;)
Monday, May 10, 2010
Top 2 Tuesday (or Monday in this case!)





Friday, May 7, 2010
Fill in the Blank Friday

Thursday, May 6, 2010
Cinco de Mayo fun

Tuesday, May 4, 2010
La Jolla, California

Have any of you been?
Top 2 Tuesday
Top 2 Things You Splurge On
1. Wine...I know this makes me sound snobby and like an alcoholic but I enjoy a really good glass/bottle of wine. It is the way B and I unwind from a week.


Monday, May 3, 2010
Fantastic Weekend
Saturday B and I headed to meet some friends at the Texas Exes Crawfish boil...crawfish and Texas Exes all in one...could it be any better?


Then we headed to the Racepark to make bets on the Derby - I was a big $6 winner! :)

Afterwards we all went for great seafood and then to watch the fight..where I promptly fell asleep.

Sunday brought gorgeous sun and B playing in his garage- and me sitting in a chair hoping his SUV doesn't fall on him while he put the lift he got for his birthday on it.

Then we headed to our favorite wine bar to sip chardonnay and talk....

then sushi date...
wrapped up with sangria at Muldoons!
All in all a fabulous weekend!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Fill in the Blank Friday!

2. My favorite movie as a child was "Angels in the Outfield". This drove my brother insane because it is a terrible movie. But I loved it.
5. The movie I could watch over and over is "When Harry Met Sally" ...see the theme here?
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Shopping
I've done a little bit of shipping here and there over the past few weeks but of everything I bought...I love this dress from Target the most. It channels my inner "hippie" but is still fun and classic and at under $20 I love it even more!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
The Help

Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Top 2 tuesday

Disclaimer- I was reading another blog (I wish I could link to it but I can't remember what blog it was..when I find it I will link back) and she also had these listed as her favorite summer activities. I don't want anyone thinking I stole her ideas because my family has been tubing the river since I was 2 (literally I was 2 when I first went down the comal river) and we've had crawfish boils as long as I can remember. :) Monday, April 26, 2010
Weeeeeeeekend.
It was nice to be by his side again. He truly does make everyday brighter and while I would normally already be smiling - him being around makes my smile bigger and truly when I think about him my heart smiles.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Roxy pup
(Roxy at Christmas time)


Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Everyone Loves a Crawfish boil!

The picture above is towards the end of the night - glassy eyed and all.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Top 2 Tuesday!

Top 2 Tuesday- Favorite Items under $15!

It goes on smoothly and it really does moisturize so I feel like it is chap stick and lip gloss all in one! At $7.39 a pop it is fantastic!
2. Liberty of London for Target® Garla Print Flip Flops - Fuchsia 
At $12.99 they are perfect to wear all summer long - I love the floral print!
Monday, April 19, 2010
45 things to remember
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your friends see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
My favorite is #38 because it is true. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Happy Friday!

Monday, April 12, 2010
Some call it...
I don't want to hurt the friendship with the relationship and yet I dont want to hurt the relationship because of the friendship. So...it is a slippery slope but at the same time...it is wonderful. It is 100% wonderful.
So how does one know it is love and not lust?
We've all been there. You are dating then it is exclusive then almost 6 months go by and then is it love or lust or a combination?
I'm at that point. I am at the point where I think I am in love. It has been 6 years since I was in love. 6 years since being with someone that I truly trusted, cared about, wanted nothing but the best for and no matter what happened - his happiness was super important to me.
And in between those 6 years I was in a long term relationship with 2 different people and dated countless amounts of people. In those 6 years I said "I love you" to two different people and the thing is - at the time I meant it. I did love them but I wasn't in love with them. I just wasn't. I wanted it to work - but the thing is...it didn't.
6 years since I saw a life that I truly wanted to have with someone. I have no idea what is intended to happen and the thing is - for the first time ever- I am 100% ok with not knowing. I don't have to read the ending before reading the book. I don't have to question everything...I just have the faith in knowing whatever will happen will happen. There are no red flags, no lies, no daunting questions that I am worried about.
I think...I am in love.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
B's Birthday!
WE went to Max's wine dive - loved the wine, the atmosphere was ok and the food was good...but the company was fantastic.
What can I say....I just truly enjoy every moment we spend together.
After dinner we came home, cuddled on the couch while watching TV and then went to bed. We awoke this morning and rushed to get ready and head to work...truly enjoy every second I'm with him. :)

