Monday, June 7, 2010

Beach camping

B and I went camping this weekend...on the beach. Loved it. Roxy didn't like the water so much but she dealt with it by pouting and sleeping in her bed.

The setup
Us after swimming and setting up camp. Love it.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Fill in the blank FRIDAY!



1. My dream vacation would be a trip that is in Greece. I loved Greece when I backpacked through Europe- but I even wrote in my journal that it is a place to bring someone you love to. So I would go again once I'm married. It is beautiful.
2. The best trip I've ever taken was when I backpacked through Europe. It was the best summer of my life.
3. The most important items to take on a road trip are books, my ipod and sweet tea!
4. The next trip I'm looking forward to is the one I'm taking next weekend to see my best friend K! I cannot wait...then again B and I may head to the Beach this weekend!
5. If I had to pick one CD to listen to for a long road trip it would be a mixed CD for sure.
6. The biggest disaster I've ever encountered while traveling was when my brother and I were young and on a roadtrip with our mom and the car was overheated. My mom pulled into a service station and some guy there CUT HER FAN BELT. My mom was so angry and called the cops on him. The cops escorted us to a new place to get things replaced. Now it is funny, it wasn't then!
7. My favorite traveling memory is my first trip alone with my brother. I was 18, he was 15 and we drove from Texas to Miami to visit our grandfather. It was a blast. I loved it. The summer before I left for college. Truly - it was so nice to have 2 weeks to do whatever we wanted and we did. It was fun and memorable. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful brother.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

One year

It rained and rained last night and I slept and slept. It was wonderful. Sometimes the rain makes me sleep better, sometimes not. But last night, I passed out.

I went to dinner with the girls, Indian this time. DELISH. While we were out- I realized how different all of our lives are now. In less than a year all of us are different. L is pregnant with a baby girl, V is single...VERY single and very happy single, R is finishing up school and starting to let go of the bs she has held onto and me...I am 180 degrees from where I was a year ago.

Yesterday marked a year since my ex and I split. Like I said - I remember certain dates and the break up, I remember. I remember because that was the day I started to become myself again. It took less than one year to be me.

My fb profile says "One day I made the decision that I have one life so I might as well love it and be happy every single day - so I am. Try it. " and the truth is...I did that. I literally sat down with myself and said - You have one life. You can be sad and hate it or you can be happy and love it. So I am happy every single day of my life. Sure I have my moments- but that is what they are - moments. There is no need to not smile - I have a wonderful life.

And once I was truly happy with my life - everything fell into place. I was working out more (gotta get back on the wagon!), making new friends, reconnecting with old friends and finding out things that I love to do! I traveled, partied, road tripped, danced and sang along the way.

It sounds crazy to say but I've never been more "alive" in my life. I think every other relationship I have been in somewhat made me feel trapped. Whether it was on the phone due to long distance, being with someone who couldn't do all of the things I wanted to do, or someone who never wanted to do things with me, or someone who somewhat thought of me as a person to clean up after them - I never felt that I could be 100% me.

I wish I could go tell every person that is starting to truly date to always be truthful to who you are, find someone who treats you wonderfully and love yourself more than you thought possible. I learned a lot of lessons over the past years - I somewhat joke that should I had just dated B from the beginning when we first went out on our first date I would have saved myself a lot of pain - but even then I know that we probably wouldn't be as great together had it not have been all of the learning experiences we have had. I wouldn't be nearly as much appreciative of all that he does (and he goes beyond anything I could ever imagine).

Everything falls into place. It all starts with being comfortable with who you are...then you are comfortable demanding what you want in life.

I demanded happiness from myself...and I got it - in every aspect of my life. It truly amazes me how one year can change everything.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

#5

#5
I made and sent a postcard to postsecret.
I love this blog and I have always wanted to send one...whenever it comes I MAY attach a link.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

M and H's wedding weekend

So B and I headed out of town this weekend to go to a wedding reception of one of his close friends. It was beautiful, their family and friends were so incredibly nice that I truly felt at ease- up until his ex gf showed up. Granted we knew she was coming but truly I was nauseous just thinking about it. I just didn't want drama, didn't want to be upset about anything and didn't want to deal with bs. She played nice I suppose, but totally left me out of all conversation and every time I left B's side she swooped in. In fact we were staying at a bed and breakfast and she WAS AT THE SAME ONE! Blech! First thing she said to the two of us- " We share a wall tonight so please try to be quiet." I could have died. I felt like I was in another universe.
Dinner time- he sat between us. I mean we sat down and she sat next to him. Seriously!

It is what it is but I'm just glad our normal life can resume and we can love each other and hold on tight to one another- but I didn't play it cool- I was not the nicest person to him- I drank too much and I'm sure I said a few things I wish I could take back- I was upset and yet I was not going to play the "he's my boyfriend" game. They talked- I was awkward and not included- it happens. Not often but it happens.

but in the end- this is what matters- the reception was wonderful, the bride and groom were lovely and B and I - we are fine. In fact more than fine- he makes everyday a better day by being in it- I'm just glad we don't have to run into her that often!

And we spent Monday hanging out the beach. I had a wonderful time with B. We spent Saturday going to a farmers market, a winery and seeing the small town the Bride was from. It was fun. Actually the whole weekend was a blast - just a few little crap moments here and there - and I won't let her ruin a weekend.

Plus...seeing him and how he handles things - I just always feel so lucky. I have no idea what I did to deserve such a wonderful person, but I can say that I am with someone that is as nice to me as I am to him and it is just lovely. 100% lovely.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Random I know...

Does anyone else ever wonder what your "blog" friends voices sound like? I have "blog" friends from all over - Arkansas, NYC, LA, Seattle, Maine etc - I just wonder what everyone sounds like...like I said...Random.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday....dates

It is Top 2 Tuesday again....this week it is...

Top 2 Dates


1. I am a very sentimental person. I can't help it. I love to remember the past and I love the little things in life. When someone remembers something I have said and brings it up later it just melts my heart. Point in case- this date happened the weekend before last. As one can see in my blog I have a list of 101 things to do in 1001 days. One of them was visit a lighthouse. I had mentioned this to B a long time ago. There is a lighthouse about 70 miles from where we live and I said next time we are in that area I wanted to stop by and see it. Well we never did that. Instead, while I went out to San Diego to visit him we were hiking and looking at the ocean and just happened to come across a light house. I wanted to cry. I just find the little things in life to be so wonderful and for him to have remembered just melted my heart. Like I said, not over the top, just thoughtful. Just the way I like it.


2. Our Coffee dates. I love them. In college B and I would meet up at Starbucks and just catch up with one another and how life was going. Now, we don't do coffee as much together, but I love when we take a moment get a cup and just talk. Like I said, I am sentimental :)

Friday, May 21, 2010

Fill in the blank...





1. One fashion trend I really regret is those babydoll tshirts back in the early 90s. THe ones with like a sunflower in the middle of your chest!

2. The one thing that always completes any outfit is earrings and lipstick/gloss. My grandmother always told me- a lady with holes in her ears and no earrings and a lady without lipstick is a lady that doesn't want to be noticed. While I don't always agree, I see her point :)
3. I would describe my personal style as somewhat preppy and somewhat classic. Like I don't wear pink and green but I also don't wear super trendy. I like dresses, cardigans and classic staples in jewel tones.
4. My fashion muse is I don't really have one...hmm

5. If I could own one designer piece of clothing it would be classic Manolo pumps and the mary janes.
6. I would love to raid the wardrobe of Lynn Wyatt- if you are in Houston you know who she is. Yes she is an older socialite but wow amazing fashion...and I love Tinsley's wardrobe! She always looks so cute and put together.
7. Today I am wearing a dress and a cardigan with cute little sandals. Told you I loved dresses!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Pep talk

One of my friends is going through a horrible break up- actually you could say that she was the "other woman" but she never knew she was. She sent her boyfriend of 6 months a text message one evening and his girlfriend responded. She thought they were exclusive- they had that conversation. He told my friend that he didn't know who to choose...what a jerk.

So I formulated a pep talk for her - It is strange how a year can change everything. My life is nothing like it was last year. I am in such a different place- I am in an incredibly loving relationship that I wouldn't trade for anything.

Here is what I said to her:

Do not talk to him. Whenever I wanted to talk to the ex and did it was worse - when I finally said no. I got better - not right away- but better and I rose above all the drama and everything else.

In the end - it didn't matter why he did what he did. I always wanted answers and the thing is the answers would not have made everything else ok. It wouldn't have helped.

It mattered that I was hurt and I needed to feel better.

Here is the thing - you gotta go cold turkey- no weaning. Just say f off, goodbye, good riddance. And it is not easy – you of all people know that last year it was not easy for me.

The day my ex and I broke up last year was one of the best days of my life. I didn't know it then, but I know it now. I know how miserable I was and how much more I deserved.

1 year without him. 1 year and look how much better it is.

The feeling that I got when it was all over was I am better than that. It is very rare that I will say that I am a better person than someone else, but I am better than him. I am a better, nicer, smarter and overall a better human being than him. And to be honest...you are better than your ex.

Here is why - There is only one reason that I will say I am better than the ex and you are better than your ex. Because neither you nor I would ever do that to someone. Ever.

It has been an incredible journey. I learned so much about myself. Mostly though- I know I lost me. I love myself. I love that I laugh all the time, I love that I am honest with myself about everything. I love that even though I can whine, complain and be kinda cranky at times, that I am true to me. I don't worry about how I affect others because I know that I bring a good person to the table- so I cannot affect them negatively.

THAT is what I want for you. Of course I want you to fall in love (and you will). I want you to at some point be in a wonderful caring relationship like I am, but truly what I want for you is the power to be yourself again. To stand up for yourself and demand someone to be just as great as you are to them to you. Because honestly- I didn't know that I could demand that- I didn't know it existed.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday


Top 2 things you want to do before you die


1. Live in Europe


2. Backpack- a serious backpacking trip in Europe, Asia, Australia - somewhere at least 3 weeks with my husband...disclaimer- I suppose getting married should be here so that at some point I would have a husband to do this with..HA! I love adventure and I hope whomever my husband to be is- he loves it more than I do so that I can truly enjoy new things!

Monday, May 17, 2010

48, 63 and 69

I haven't uploaded the pictures yet...but I just came back from La Jolla.

B and I had a wonderful time. I truly have such an incredibly amazing boyfriend. I hope everyone is as lucky as I am.

We had a wonderful and romantic weekend. We saw a lighthouse, went hiking, had great wine, great food and truly I love every second I am with him. From laughing about our BRIGHT RED convertible, to watching the waves crash, to watching the sunset, sleeping in, walking around town- I am so lucky.

It was a wonderful romantic getaway.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

RL friends

I have a RL friend that follows me now...HI C!!! ;) I hope you and baby C are doing well in Vegas! :)

I've been busy...

So I was out of pocket the past 2 days because.....


I BOUGHT A CAR!!!

Now it needs a Longhorn emblem and I'm good to go! ;)

Monday, May 10, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday (or Monday in this case!)

It is that time of the week again...Top 2 Tuesday!!!
Top 2 Dream Houses!

1. I'd love to live in Italy!





2. I'd love to live in Paris!



What are yours?

Manners

Janice is having a giveaway...go check it out! :) You are welcome!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Fill in the Blank Friday

Lauren has another ....

1. My favorite book growing up was...... Heidi and The Giving Tree...true classics.
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2. The funniest book I've ever read was.....I have no idea. I loved the Shopoholic series and thought they were funny :)
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3. The one book that has truly changed my life is .... The Secret. It isn't that I truly believe in everything the book says - what I do believe in is this - if you are a happy person you will surround yourself with happy people. The whole you get what you put out in the universe I do actually believe in.
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4. If you're looking for a real "tear jerker" you should probably read.....A Walk to Remember
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5. If I could meet any author living or dead I would want to meet Mark Twain and Harper Lee. They wrote about books that truly changed people. Forward thinkers.
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6. The next book on my "to read" list is the Oprah unofficial biography- the Kitty Kelley one - it was at the used bookstore ALREADY and therefore I just HAD to get it. It was $4...you tell me you wouldn't be interested ;)
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7. If I was snowed into remote cabin in the woods and could only choose three books to bring with me I'd bring... Eat, Pray, Love, Mansfield Park and Huckleberry Finn

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Cinco de Mayo fun


While this blog is mostly for fun and for my 101 in 1001 list - I slowly see that it has also become a way for me to remember my life. It is fun to look back and see and remember good times (and bad!).


Cinco de Mayo was so much fun last night - mostly because of B. (of course)


The day started off kinda scary actually! I was at his place because I had 2 meetings by his house yesterday. So as I was blow drying my hair Roxy started barking...so I turned off the blowdryer and told her to hush. Then I heard the front gate slam closed. I thought to myself "thats weird" but figured someone was leaving a flyer at the door or something. Then I started blowdrying my hair again. Rox then went crazy. So I turned off the blowdryer and heard the next door neighbors house alarm going off. Then I heard someone yell "oh shit" and THEN the scary part- they went running on the roof of B's place to escape! So I have a very overactive imagination- so I called B and he told me to call the cops (why I called him first I don't know) but anyway it took the cops 34 minutes to arrive...I'm glad no one got in!


Needless to say it was a crazy morning.


I met B and one of his co-workers for lunch and I was still shaking...my hair didn't get done and I went makeupless...thank god I have good skin! ;)


Then I went to my meeting and met B back up at his place after work. He hugged me and we chatted and we watched the rest of the Lovely Bones (scary but great book!) It was fun. I wasn't feeling particularly in the mood to put makeup on and get all fancied up so I said "does my face need any make up?" and he said "your face is always beautiful" or something like that...you have to know that B isn't really a word kinda person so I think whenever I hear him say things like that it makes my heart melt. Yes...it is that easy to make my day.


Then we met up with friends for Mexican food and too many margaritas.

B and I got there early so we enjoyed a margarita on the patio and just chatted (about lovely things like the new law in Arizona...always a great drinking topic ha!) and truly I just feel so fabulous when we are together. We drank and ate dinner with his friends (I mean I guess they are my friends too but they were his friends first) ;) Overall a fantastic night...
I so wish he wasn't out of town now...I'll start missing him in a few days! ;)




Tuesday, May 4, 2010

La Jolla, California

La Jolla:
Have any of you been?

B is going to be there for work soon and I will be joining him at the end of the trip for a few days...while I am sure he will have things planned (he's been there countless times before) any ideas would be great!


We are staying here

...a girl could get used to this kind of life ;) (just kidding!) But I will say I am very excited about this little getaway...it will fulfill #45 on my list!

Top 2 Tuesday

It is Top 2 Tuesday over at Taylor's again....

Top 2 Things You Splurge On

1. Wine...I know this makes me sound snobby and like an alcoholic but I enjoy a really good glass/bottle of wine. It is the way B and I unwind from a week.


2. Make up - I can't help it - I could spend hours/days in Sephora. Granted I am not allowed to because of this but one day I will be back! It is so stupid but for some reason I don't think drugstore makeup is as good as Sephora makeup- and I know that is wrong! :)

Monday, May 3, 2010

Fantastic Weekend

This weekend included lots of my favorites!


Saturday B and I headed to meet some friends at the Texas Exes Crawfish boil...crawfish and Texas Exes all in one...could it be any better?



Then we headed to the Racepark to make bets on the Derby - I was a big $6 winner! :)


Afterwards we all went for great seafood and then to watch the fight..where I promptly fell asleep.




Sunday brought gorgeous sun and B playing in his garage- and me sitting in a chair hoping his SUV doesn't fall on him while he put the lift he got for his birthday on it.


Then we headed to our favorite wine bar to sip chardonnay and talk....

then sushi date...

wrapped up with sangria at Muldoons!

All in all a fabulous weekend!

Friday, April 30, 2010

Fill in the Blank Friday!


1. My absolute favorite movie of all time is - When Harry Met Sally. I love that movie. I can quote it and I can watch it over an over again. It makes me laugh and it makes me believe in second chances, love and friendship.

2. My favorite movie as a child was "Angels in the Outfield". This drove my brother insane because it is a terrible movie. But I loved it.
3. The best movie quote ever is - from "When Harry Met Sally" It is almost at the end of the movie and it is on New Years..."I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
4. My favorite actress is Sandra Bullock. I hate that her husband is such an asshole.

5. The movie I could watch over and over is "When Harry Met Sally" ...see the theme here?
6. My favorite movie genre is I like chick flicks and comedies. Hangover was HILARIOUS
7. A movie I'd like to watch this weekend is I dont want to watch a movie this weekend.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Shopping

I've done a little bit of shipping here and there over the past few weeks but of everything I bought...I love this dress from Target the most. It channels my inner "hippie" but is still fun and classic and at under $20 I love it even more!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The Help


I read a lot. I always want suggestions on new books to pick up etc. So when Samma talked about a book in one of her blog posts I picked it up at the bookstore.


The Help by Kathryn Stockett is very well written and I am not quite sure how I felt about it. All I can say is that it changed me. Not in a crazy way but in a wow so much has changed in this world in 40 years and yet I was unaware of the true amounts of change.


I say pick it up, give it a read and tell me what you think.
Also...any book suggestions? I like all kinds and my stack is getting low! :) I love Chick lit but I also love heavy reading so any suggestions would be great.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Top 2 tuesday

It is Top 2 Tuesday






Top 2 Favorite Things About Summer -

1. Tubing the River- Whether it be the Comal or the Guadalupe River - no summer is complete without a tube trip.

2. Crawfish - Love them. The spicier the better and this comes from a gal that hates spicy food. Disclaimer- I was reading another blog (I wish I could link to it but I can't remember what blog it was..when I find it I will link back) and she also had these listed as her favorite summer activities. I don't want anyone thinking I stole her ideas because my family has been tubing the river since I was 2 (literally I was 2 when I first went down the comal river) and we've had crawfish boils as long as I can remember. :)
edit to add: http://unwritten322.blogspot.com/ thats the blog I read yesterday :)

Monday, April 26, 2010

Weeeeeeeekend.

B was out of town all last week and we were reunited yesterday. While I have been in plenty of long distance relationships and I know that a week apart isn't terrible- I missed him. It's crazy because usually he is gone and while I wish we could meet up for dinner or something, I don't truly miss him. This time I truly missed him and wanted him home. The weekend was fun- good BBQ, good friends, fun party and catching up with an old friend but it was best when he got home.

It was nice to be by his side again. He truly does make everyday brighter and while I would normally already be smiling - him being around makes my smile bigger and truly when I think about him my heart smiles.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Roxy pup


(Roxy at Christmas time)

So I realized that I I have not written about Roxy pup!
(Roxy and I)


So B has a dog - a Lhasa Apso. His parents gave her to him. She is adorable. I am completely obsessed with Roxy. Although they are supposed to be 25-30lbs she is a little under 10lbs (the runt of the litter) and she is precious. I think he thinks I am crazy because I just love her to pieces. I take pictures of her, cuddle with her and I truly think she is the cutest, sweetest dog ever.
(Roxy with my godfather and one of their dogs Brie)
MY godparents dogs and me relaxing :)




Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Everyone Loves a Crawfish boil!


This past weekend was a lot of fun. We celebrated my friend J's birthday this weekend. Her wonderful BF put on a large crawfish boil. It was so much fun.

I LOVE crawfish and I love seeing my friends. All in all it was a wonderful day! Who doesn't have fun with a keg, wine and jello shots ;)

The picture above is towards the end of the night - glassy eyed and all.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday!

The Undomestic Momma has another Top 2 Tuesday!



Top 2 Tuesday- Favorite Items under $15!
1. Neutrogena MoistureShine® Lip Sheers in Shimmering Blush.

It goes on smoothly and it really does moisturize so I feel like it is chap stick and lip gloss all in one! At $7.39 a pop it is fantastic!


2. Liberty of London for Target® Garla Print Flip Flops - Fuchsia

At $12.99 they are perfect to wear all summer long - I love the floral print!

Monday, April 19, 2010

45 things to remember

Shamelessly stolen from a forwarded e-mail by a coworker, but it made me smile so I thought I'd pass it on via blog. I hope something on the list strikes a chord with you; I know a few definitely did for me. I don't believe in all of them, but there are a few that I do!

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your friends see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.


My favorite is #38 because it is true. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Happy Friday!

It is Fill in the Blank Friday
1. The first thing I do in the morning is: roll over and think "seriously? it's already morning?"
2. Every night before bed I: turn over and over and try to settle in - this - I think annoys B to no end as he just gets in bed and falls asleep - I have to get comfy.
3. My favorite thing to do when I'm having a bad day is: get a good latte or indulge in senseless tv.
4. Something that makes me cringe is: the thought that I need to clean up my house!
5. Social situations: make me happy. I love to be around people (as long as I like the company!)
6. I like to collect: NOTHING...I hate collections of crap.
7. Weekends are for: resting, getting coffee and overall relaxing.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Some call it...

So my blog is sometimes fun and light hearted, sometimes not...but mostly it is just the stuff that is going on in my life and in my head. As most can see I am in a semi-new relationship with one of the most amazing people I've ever known. And yes...before we were dating I thought that about him. So here I am. My life is amazing and I am lucky...blessed...whatever the word may be. But I am so hesitant in the relationship - I've been hurt, lied to, etc before. So I go two steps forward then 1 step back with this relationship.

I don't want to hurt the friendship with the relationship and yet I dont want to hurt the relationship because of the friendship. So...it is a slippery slope but at the same time...it is wonderful. It is 100% wonderful.

So how does one know it is love and not lust?

We've all been there. You are dating then it is exclusive then almost 6 months go by and then is it love or lust or a combination?

I'm at that point. I am at the point where I think I am in love. It has been 6 years since I was in love. 6 years since being with someone that I truly trusted, cared about, wanted nothing but the best for and no matter what happened - his happiness was super important to me.

And in between those 6 years I was in a long term relationship with 2 different people and dated countless amounts of people. In those 6 years I said "I love you" to two different people and the thing is - at the time I meant it. I did love them but I wasn't in love with them. I just wasn't. I wanted it to work - but the thing is...it didn't.

6 years since I saw a life that I truly wanted to have with someone. I have no idea what is intended to happen and the thing is - for the first time ever- I am 100% ok with not knowing. I don't have to read the ending before reading the book. I don't have to question everything...I just have the faith in knowing whatever will happen will happen. There are no red flags, no lies, no daunting questions that I am worried about.

I think...I am in love.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

B's Birthday!

Nothing too fancy - he came home and we chatted and caught up with each other (we haven't spent a lot of time together lately!) Then he opened his presents - he knew one of them but the other two I think he was surprised at and then...DINNER



WE went to Max's wine dive - loved the wine, the atmosphere was ok and the food was good...but the company was fantastic.



What can I say....I just truly enjoy every moment we spend together.



After dinner we came home, cuddled on the couch while watching TV and then went to bed. We awoke this morning and rushed to get ready and head to work...truly enjoy every second I'm with him. :)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday


Top 2 Favorite magazines

1. Body and Soul: I love this magazine. It has great tips and wonder recipes along with just a fresh outlook on life!




2. Texas Monthly. I am a Texan Afterall! :) My dad buys my subscription every year.